The Uncomfortable Soul

Alcoholism is Uncomfortable - like REALLY uncomfortable.

Buckle the fuck up because this episode is a mf ride! This is my story through alcoholism, drug addiction, depression, and general fuckery. 
*TRIGGER WARNING*
I discuss drugs, various violence, along with an unaliving attempt. It is ALLLOT but its my story.
I'm crazy grateful to be able to not only have a space to tell this story but also have done the healing to be able to share this without shame. Am I a touch afraid of judgement? OBVIOUSLY - I am only human. However, I have looked at this story from all angles, tried to figure out why I did it, the ripple effect all these choices made, and also have AN INCREDIBLE support system to be able to walk out of this chapter and into another.
 
Thank you for listening and if there is anything you'd like to discuss feel free to email me mailto:theuncomfortablesoul@gmail.com
 

Post Divorce aka new marriage who dis?

Alright guys, hold on because this episode is A LOT. 
I always call the situation we discuss in this episode as our divorce because the way I see it is that I left that marriage, and somehow found another one, but with the same person. I am beyond grateful for the growth that we have done. 
 
The amount of accountability Liz takes in this episode is honestly shocking, I was not ready for it. PLEASE TAKE THIS AS A PROOF THAT PEOPLE AREN'T INHERITENTLY UNABLE TO HEAL. I'm honestly so sick of "oh well he's a man" "oh well they have trauma" Yea, us too babe - get help. 
 
ANYWAYS - I'm done screaming. I hope you enjoy this episode because it was so healing for the both of us. 
 
As always, thank you and if you have any questions or comments please feel free to email me. 

AntsyRant pt 3 Spirit doesn't test me because I can't fail

Just a mini episode where I scream about how far I've come - which seems to be a theme for the mini episodes! 
 
ANYWAYS! Enjoy! 

Where them workaholics at tho?

WHAT AM I IF I CAN'T RUN CIRCLES AROUND EVERYONE!?
 
Okay, that seems a lot but its really what I believed. This episode I talk about my journey with work. I started working at 13 - so we're at 19 years of experience at 32. From pizza places, receptionist, working on cars, working on an army base and just like SO MUCH MORE. 
 
I discuss how I tried to find my worth in my pay, my title, and others judgments of me! It's been a ride and I hope you enjoy it! 
 
If you have an questions or requests feel free to reach out at theuncomfortablesoul@gmail.com

What is my truth?

Finding my truth has been such a journey. Learning to trust my own voice over the fear of how other perceive me has been such a game changer for myself! 
 
Part 2 of the relationship with Liz will be released as soon as we can record! We had lots of life show up in the last couple weeks and working as a team HAS to come before anything else. Thank you for your patience!  

Antsy Rant pt 2 - Look at how far we've come!

Okay yall - this is raw. It's like really raw - I think I cried half of this episode. 
I wanted to really get across that it is important to look at how much I have grown. Growth is messy, hard, and wait for it - UNCOMFORTABLE. 
This is me patting myself on the back and I hope you take this opportunity to pat yourself on the back too! 

Is it codependency if we're aware of it? aka my marriage

Sooo this episode is Liz and I just being crazy honest about our relationship. We started as codependent 12 step buddies that quickly fell in love and decided to share our messes with each other. Is that dramatic? Unfortunately no lol 
**There is a trigger warning for this episode. We discuss domestic violence, manipulation, fears, and suicidal threats. **
We cover the first part of our journey before we became parents in this episode. The good, the bad, and the ugly. We were just two lost people DESPERATLY looking for that unconditional love we both craved. I hope you enjoy our experiences we share, while some are really humbling to discuss, I think it's important to normalize changing the toxic behaviors that don't work. 
There will be a Part 2 where we talk about what I like to call "post divorce" growth and how different our relationship looks like today. 
 
If you have any questions or comments feel free to reach out here!

Growing from Attachment to Connection!

In this episode I get just really open and honest about my connections. The way that my relationships have worked my entire life just don't work for me anymore. It has been a scary journey looking at and taking space from relationships that do not make me comfortable anymore. Taking accountability of my part in these situations have created the stepping stones I need to walk forward in my growth, and I'm crazy grateful for it! 
 
I hope you love it! 
 
If you have any questions or just want to chat feel free to reach out at theuncomfortablesoul@gmail.com

Antsy Rant Ep 1

I've been trying to figure out how bring all these little rants together into one big episode - ya know for the drama lol 
 
So here is what I've tried to come up with. Small mini rants where I scream about things that trigger me and the lessons that I learn from them! 
 
This one is about how a tik tok about "marriage should be easy" and how it triggered me. I have literally JUST recorded it and I'm putting it out there. So there is a chance I will take this down and pretend as though it never happened lol 

WHY AM I SO UNCOMFORTABLE?!

THIS IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING. 
I'm still in a touch of shock that I'm doing this. I have always not only hated my own voice, but I've been paralyzed of the fear of judgement to do something like this. 
BUT HERE WE GROWWWWW! 
This episode is a bit about myself and why I want to create this space! I recorded this episode back in January - so I could take the time to make sure I really wanted to do this. lol 
 
I hope you enjoy it as much as I enjoyed recording! 
 
You can email me at theuncomfortablesoul@gmail.com